tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-10882223234745701082024-03-13T09:03:41.356-05:00DonnaWilsonI am 29 years old. Married to an amazing man of God. I have two little boys and a little girl who are just blatent examples of Gods love for me, as if Jesus wasn't enough! Our family goes to The Village Church and we LOVE it! We have two dogs; Pixie and Harley. Just a simple life, thank goodness!Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger28125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1088222323474570108.post-89029710179782613792010-04-10T21:28:00.024-05:002010-04-10T22:44:14.943-05:00What a day...Whoa. Today began, sort of at 6 am. Brooke woke up and needed to eat. So I fed her and was back in bed by 6:15 demanding to get my 15 more minutes of sleep before my alarm went off. I might mention too, that I had two visitors in my bed last night as well. Well technically 3. Darin was out of town so my friend Sara spent the night... and Conner and Parker decided midway through the night to come in and make it a party! Thank goodness we got a king size bed recently.<br /><br />Anyway, back to my 15 minutes of rest... well, my alarm decided that I could have more than 15. Like an hour and 15. Well, that was not part of the plan. You see at 8 am we were to be at the baseball field for Parkers blastball pictures. Followed by a game at 9 and then Conner had a game at noon. Well, since I woke up (still with two sleeping boys next to me) at 7:40 the day got started with a bang. Thankfully we have some great friends who were more than helpful this morning.... and every morning for that matter. Long story though, so I won't even go there right now except to say that we now have a girl living with us. It has been a GREAT experience thus far.<br /><br />Anyway, Parker and I got moving and my friends met us at the field with Conner and Brooke in time for Parkers game. Sweet boy. We had a great time spending time alone for that hour before his game. We laughed and snuggled and I got to hold him a lot. It was so nice! I can't believe he is old enough to play blast ball! Gosh time flies... I have a lot to say about that later.<br />So he took his pictures and played his game, we went grocery shopping and then got back to the field just in time for Conner to warm up with his team before his game. Conner played catcher and left field, and let me just say that he is quite the cute little catcher! He's real funny though because he doesn't even try to catch any balls, and in fact if they are coming right to him he will move and let them go by. Thankfully at this age there is a coach behind home to get the balls. I asked Conner today why he doesn't try to catch the balls and he said "cause I don't want them to hit me." So, we'll see how that goes! :)<br />After Conners game we got to go out to eat at one of our favorite restraunts in the area and then we came home... Even though the afternoon and evening were not really filled with anything, I am just beat now! Parker has been all of his age of 3 lately. Man I love that kid, but man he is a handful at times. He needs a nap still, but if he gets one he won't go to bed until really late, so for the past 4-5 months we have just been skipping nap, putting them down early and dealing with the dreaded dinnertime hours. Well, today he fell asleep. Usually that is a bad thing for the rest of the night, but tonight he is asleep.<br />Ok, well I feel like that was all kind of hodge podge... but the real reason I was driven to blog tonight is that after all the children were in bed I prayed over each one individually and layed hands on them. I would love to be able to say that I do this every night, but unfortunatly that would be a lie. Tonight however I did get to rock Brooke and pray over her sweet little soul and life. Today I had the SCARE OF A LIFETIME! I was standing in the livingroom... and Brooke was in the bumbo on the counter in the kitchen. This is not uncommon. She loves to be a part of whatever is going on and usually the only danger in putting her in there on the counter is that she will grab ANYTHING within reach, so we just make sure there isn't anything harmful within reach. Well, tonight she decided that she should get out of the bumbo and she did. She rolled right out of it and just about fell off the counter onto the tile floor. ONLY by the Lords divine plan was I able to somehow see what was happening and run over and grab her leg as she was rolling off of the counter. Needless to say I was VERY shaken up over this. My whole body was shaking with fear, but seriously wow! It was so neat to have such a sure feeling that God was with me. God was with Brooke. Thank Him she is ok! NO MORE BUMBO on the counter. Honestly what in the world was I thinking anyway?!<br />Anyway, back to the prayers... So once I got Brooke into bed I went to the boys room and layed down with Parker and prayed over him. Sweet boy he just snuggled right up to me and put his arm around me. Breathing so sweet and softly. That kid is the BEST snuggler I've EVER met! So thankful for him and his precious heart.<br />Then I climbed up on the top bunk for some prayer time with Conner. There are not really any words to explain what I felt laying there with him. As a mother of young children I am constantly being told "Enjoy it while you can... they grow up so fast." And I always reply with "I know, I cannot believe that 5 years has already passed since I became a mom." And I really can't believe it. But tonight was different. I actually realized 5 years has passed with my sweet Conner. Once I had finished praying over Parker I just climbed up on the side of the bed and put my hands on Conner and prayed over him (cause I didn't want to climb up there), but by the time I was done praying I thought I should really lay next to him for a little bit at least. Really it was cause I felt guilty that I had snuggled with Brooke and Parker but not really with him. But once I was up there I was laying there and a thought occured to me/ punched me in the face. This is such a short time. Soon he won't want me laying with him. Someday he will be awake long after I go to sleep and I will not be able to sneak in and pray over him. He is growing up and while it is so fun to watch I am so incredibly sad that one day this will all be over. One day I won't be able to spend the time listening to him talking about cars or jellyfish or superheros. Some days it feels like he just goes on and on and on about these things. It is so hard to tune in. But tonight I feel as if God shook me and said WAKE UP! Be as much a part of their lives as you can possibly be. Especially now while they will let me be. I have this wonderful opportunity to stay at home with my children. I hope so much that I will take full advantage of that. I hope that I will know my children. Everything they like and dislike, how they feel about things. I pray that when Conner licks a paint stirrer that has clear coating on it that goes on wood for outside because he thinks its honey (no, this for sure did not happen tonight) that I would know how to comfort him when he is crying. Not because something is hurt, but because he is afraid he's going to get sick. I just hope and pray that I will have open eyes to be what God has called me to be in this season of my life. A mother and a wife. I pray that I would not be caught up in all the things that feel like they matter so much when actually loving my children and husband and Lord is what matters. Cultivating those relationships above all else is what matters. <br /><em>God please remind me, gently or not, whatever it takes, everyday to be who you want me to be. And please grow me into that person because I KNOW there is no way I am getting there without you.</em><br />With that... here are some pictures from the last little while...<br />Sorry a couple of them are sideways...:(<br /><br /><br /><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E68zGFKpI/AAAAAAAAAaY/IN6_KTiMOZo/s1600/wilson+3+easter+2010.jpg"><img style="WIDTH: 221px; HEIGHT: 166px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5458709039532026514" border="0" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E68zGFKpI/AAAAAAAAAaY/IN6_KTiMOZo/s320/wilson+3+easter+2010.jpg" /></a> <a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E6wJ0HArI/AAAAAAAAAaQ/Ya9ld_t78qg/s1600/conner+easter+2010.jpg"><img style="WIDTH: 221px; HEIGHT: 166px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5458708822292366002" border="0" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E6wJ0HArI/AAAAAAAAAaQ/Ya9ld_t78qg/s320/conner+easter+2010.jpg" /></a><br /><div><div><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E6jN4YCsI/AAAAAAAAAaI/vjAlkQyh_1s/s1600/Conner+red+lobster.jpg"><img style="WIDTH: 221px; HEIGHT: 166px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5458708600045701826" border="0" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E6jN4YCsI/AAAAAAAAAaI/vjAlkQyh_1s/s320/Conner+red+lobster.jpg" /></a><br /><div><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E52TNEaaI/AAAAAAAAAaA/m2SStxSHv3M/s1600/400.JPG"><img style="WIDTH: 240px; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5458707828380559778" border="0" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E52TNEaaI/AAAAAAAAAaA/m2SStxSHv3M/s320/400.JPG" /></a><br /><div><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E5n7Sz6KI/AAAAAAAAAZ4/frwqXtOUMPw/s1600/387.JPG"><img style="WIDTH: 240px; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5458707581444024482" border="0" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E5n7Sz6KI/AAAAAAAAAZ4/frwqXtOUMPw/s320/387.JPG" /></a><br /><div><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E5YrD63PI/AAAAAAAAAZw/LkpOm4gmHaQ/s1600/377.JPG"><img style="WIDTH: 240px; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5458707319388560626" border="0" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E5YrD63PI/AAAAAAAAAZw/LkpOm4gmHaQ/s320/377.JPG" /></a><br /><div><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E5R3B96sI/AAAAAAAAAZo/33pb7A9vE0c/s1600/370.JPG"><img style="WIDTH: 240px; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5458707202342513346" border="0" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E5R3B96sI/AAAAAAAAAZo/33pb7A9vE0c/s320/370.JPG" /></a><br /><div><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E5KltkRMI/AAAAAAAAAZg/BtUCyz1tG-E/s1600/373.JPG"><img style="WIDTH: 240px; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5458707077434459330" border="0" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E5KltkRMI/AAAAAAAAAZg/BtUCyz1tG-E/s320/373.JPG" /></a><br /><div><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E5CdorKDI/AAAAAAAAAZY/8mMbimS-pqI/s1600/368.JPG"><img style="WIDTH: 320px; HEIGHT: 240px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5458706937827502130" border="0" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E5CdorKDI/AAAAAAAAAZY/8mMbimS-pqI/s320/368.JPG" /></a><br /><div><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E46q4LQSI/AAAAAAAAAZQ/AK01RLFrh7Y/s1600/353.JPG"><img style="WIDTH: 240px; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5458706803943227682" border="0" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E46q4LQSI/AAAAAAAAAZQ/AK01RLFrh7Y/s320/353.JPG" /></a><br /><div><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E4kJdV95I/AAAAAAAAAZI/BQ1ZGv4_RAI/s1600/337.JPG"><img style="WIDTH: 320px; HEIGHT: 240px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5458706417015191442" border="0" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E4kJdV95I/AAAAAAAAAZI/BQ1ZGv4_RAI/s320/337.JPG" /></a><br /><div><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E4KnFdsdI/AAAAAAAAAZA/ubs6idUZYdA/s1600/136.JPG"><img style="WIDTH: 320px; HEIGHT: 240px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5458705978291499474" border="0" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E4KnFdsdI/AAAAAAAAAZA/ubs6idUZYdA/s320/136.JPG" /></a><br /><div><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E3Y3e15XI/AAAAAAAAAY4/kyn6YfIqvVk/s1600/314.JPG"><img style="WIDTH: 320px; HEIGHT: 240px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5458705123699451250" border="0" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E3Y3e15XI/AAAAAAAAAY4/kyn6YfIqvVk/s320/314.JPG" /></a><br /><div><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E3IsApq0I/AAAAAAAAAYw/6L5AQFFjcGQ/s1600/283.JPG"><img style="WIDTH: 320px; HEIGHT: 240px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5458704845742123842" border="0" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E3IsApq0I/AAAAAAAAAYw/6L5AQFFjcGQ/s320/283.JPG" /></a><br /><div><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E2-gHLpHI/AAAAAAAAAYo/zW4OMYJ4SqI/s1600/270.JPG"><img style="WIDTH: 240px; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5458704670749598834" border="0" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E2-gHLpHI/AAAAAAAAAYo/zW4OMYJ4SqI/s320/270.JPG" /></a><br /><div><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E22XkbM8I/AAAAAAAAAYg/zhLvth6dYq0/s1600/301.JPG"><img style="WIDTH: 240px; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5458704531017380802" border="0" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E22XkbM8I/AAAAAAAAAYg/zhLvth6dYq0/s320/301.JPG" /></a><br /><div><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E2wjrDnYI/AAAAAAAAAYY/o2zKUw5I71k/s1600/355.JPG"><img style="WIDTH: 240px; HEIGHT: 320px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5458704431187205506" border="0" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E2wjrDnYI/AAAAAAAAAYY/o2zKUw5I71k/s320/355.JPG" /></a><br /><div><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E2DzLfVBI/AAAAAAAAAYQ/bgVBABKhdfE/s1600/394.JPG"><img style="WIDTH: 320px; HEIGHT: 240px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5458703662255658002" border="0" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E2DzLfVBI/AAAAAAAAAYQ/bgVBABKhdfE/s320/394.JPG" /></a><br /><br /><div><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E12XDzvuI/AAAAAAAAAYI/Q2oZlF9sEl8/s1600/360.JPG"><img style="WIDTH: 320px; HEIGHT: 240px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5458703431368949474" border="0" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E12XDzvuI/AAAAAAAAAYI/Q2oZlF9sEl8/s320/360.JPG" /></a><br /><br /><div><div><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E1egVAqXI/AAAAAAAAAX4/rMdQPVT1YQg/s1600/321.JPG"><img style="WIDTH: 320px; HEIGHT: 240px; CURSOR: hand" id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5458703021540157810" border="0" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/S8E1egVAqXI/AAAAAAAAAX4/rMdQPVT1YQg/s320/321.JPG" /></a><br /><div> </div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1088222323474570108.post-43293401197651302392010-02-28T22:21:00.001-06:002010-02-28T22:22:33.516-06:00Still here...Hopefully I will find time to blog again soon... And to do my laundry and to work on some sewing projects... and the list goes on.:)Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1088222323474570108.post-10541705059823533252009-10-15T22:39:00.005-05:002009-10-15T22:50:40.922-05:00Too Long...So, I know its been way to long... Because I my last post I was here....<br /><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/StftAhhu7DI/AAAAAAAAAWU/wNRWJrNHq4Q/s1600-h/Donna+Pregnant+with+Brooke.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5393039672055098418" style="WIDTH: 166px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 221px" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/StftAhhu7DI/AAAAAAAAAWU/wNRWJrNHq4Q/s320/Donna+Pregnant+with+Brooke.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div></div><br /><div>And now I am here... </div><div></div><div></div><div></div><div><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/Stfsx82bF3I/AAAAAAAAAWM/Pob4tqdmSVU/s1600-h/057.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5393039421691598706" style="WIDTH: 240px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/Stfsx82bF3I/AAAAAAAAAWM/Pob4tqdmSVU/s320/057.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/StfsnRVj1uI/AAAAAAAAAWE/9MBcpuuInHc/s1600-h/Donna+Pregnant+with+Brooke.jpg"></a><div><br /><span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Unfortunately</span> because this last picture is where I am... I don't have time to elaborate.:) Maybe soon! But for now I am totally enjoying this beautiful two month old God's blessed me with! </div><div>SWEET GIRL!!!<br /><br /></div><div><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/StfsJCZGTBI/AAAAAAAAAV8/wivdS66ncKk/s1600-h/Donna+Pregnant+with+Brooke.jpg"></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><div></div></div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1088222323474570108.post-87765251269092008752009-08-03T07:27:00.002-05:002009-08-03T07:29:19.120-05:0011 days to go...Thats pretty much the length of this post... I have a doctors appointment today. Which will be my second to last one before my scheduled c-section on the 14th. I'm so excited! Also very excited because in 12 days I get to see my Auntie Liz. She is coming to help with all things baby, and I am so thrilled to have her!!!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1088222323474570108.post-43337770342777814552009-07-25T12:30:00.004-05:002009-07-25T12:32:36.101-05:00a picture from wisconsin... more to come.<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/SmtBYGQuoJI/AAAAAAAAAQs/V9bW6upK_XQ/s1600-h/conner.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5362451663568150674" style="WIDTH: 205px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 295px" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/SmtBYGQuoJI/AAAAAAAAAQs/V9bW6upK_XQ/s320/conner.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1088222323474570108.post-37341256929750029962009-07-22T08:00:00.002-05:002009-07-22T08:06:58.070-05:00funny guy...Well, I am getting tired. Restless. But overall I feel pretty good. I am 35 weeks and 3 days along now. I can't WAIT to have the baby!<br />The other day I had been on my feet all day and Darin complained about being tired (he wasn't on his feet all day)... I was in a mood and I said "WHAT?! I've been on my feet all day!" And he replied "I don't know what you're complaining about, at least you have two sets!" He always says the funniest things, that make my mood a little lighter! So grateful to have a "funny guy" around.<br />My c-section is still scheduled for the 14th. My doctor said yesterday that I could easily go into labor sooner though, and if I do, as long as it is after I turn 36 weeks, they will just do a c-section then. He said she is plenty big by then. So, I asked him if I could run or something to hurry it along... and he said as long as I feel up to it, but that probably wouldn't put me into labor. Funny, because didn't really think I couldn't run before I just hadn't felt up to it!LOL. <br />Anyway, today I am going to the gym, and I'm feeling pretty good, so I may just try that run afterall!<br />So, all that to say, sorry there isn't really and substance to this post, just thought I should write something since its been awhile.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1088222323474570108.post-35959818133777116532009-07-01T21:39:00.002-05:002009-07-01T21:43:44.528-05:00Not much new...I haven't posted in awhile. I just thought I would update...<br />Still pregnant... 32 weeks and 2 days.<br />Scheduled c-section August 14th, 2009 8am.<br />Its HOT!<br />Darin's home (that is in the state, but really he's out playing basketball) until tomorrow night. <br />He comes back Monday and then, because he has 2 weeks "off" we decided today that we will rent a car and drive up to Wisconsin and see my family. I am SOOOOO looking forward to that.<br />The boys are doing great.<br />I am feeling great. <br />Can't wait to meet our new little girl in 6 weeks and 5 days!LOL... yes the countdown has begun, but not for the usual uncomfortable reasons... just cause I'm anxious.<br />We've been working on her room, and I will post pictures later when it is all put together.<br />Anyway, that was an awkward post, but a post nonetheless!:)Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1088222323474570108.post-37453590178981117702009-05-23T22:25:00.000-05:002009-05-23T22:26:54.846-05:00Click <a href="http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?pid=30501858&l=6062be0277&id=1149174884">here</a> to see the ultrasound picture... Sorry I'm being lazy.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1088222323474570108.post-47135751153712089782009-05-23T22:21:00.002-05:002009-05-23T22:25:05.905-05:00update on baby...I had an ultrasound to follow up the last one when they told me my amniotic fluid was low. The ultrasound was Wednesday, and I am so sorry it took me this long to post an update. It was at an 8 with 10-20 being normal at the first ultrasound... but on Wednesday it was at 12! So that is very good news! The doctor said I must have just been dehydrated that day (thats what he said was probably the problem at that point too). So, i am drinking a TON of water still hoping to keep it in the normal range. I also got a great ultrasound picture of the baby where it looks like she is smiling! I will post it in a sec.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1088222323474570108.post-53218443309083007952009-05-17T16:29:00.002-05:002009-05-17T17:16:42.551-05:00a very much needed revelation!I have to start this post out with a recap on last nights events...<br />Darin was out of town (of course) and the boys took a late nap... which meant that we could go to the late service at church and get away with it (normally we can't, because by the time it gets out it is way past the boys bedtime, and they are cranky and it just isn't good). So, we went to the 7. That was fine. We left church at almost 8:30... came straight home and got ready for bed. On the way home Parker threw a MASSIVE fit that I could do nothing to calm him down. So, he lost the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">privilege</span> to read and sing with Conner and I before bedtime. So when we got home I got him ready, prayed with him and put him in his bed. Then I went and read and sang and prayed with Conner and put him in his bed. I won't put all the details on here... because there are TWO HOURS of details... but the boys did not fall asleep until 11 o'clock. Conner probably would have if it wasn't for <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Parkers</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">incessant</span> screaming. I tried everything to get Parker to stop. Everything minus staying in his room with him, or letting him come out. These are two habits I WILL NOT get into. So, he finally zonked out at 11 pm. Right about the time the littlest bit of my sanity flew out of the window. I was <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">soooooo</span> frustrated. I cried, I prayed (not just at the end but through the whole thing) and then finally I cried myself to sleep... just a little bit quieter than he did.<br />Then this morning when I woke up to Parker climbing in my bed at 5:30 I was just as frustrated. Well, I started off not being that frustrated, but after I took him back to his room and he started screaming the frustration quickly crept up. So again, I cried, prayed, felt like cursing, and even justified my curses in my head (funny the things you do when its early morning and you don't have to be up)... And at 7 am he fell back asleep... after a whole bunch more crying and screaming. After all that I prayed some more and fell back asleep. <br />My prayer in these types of situations is that 1. God would <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">PALEASE</span> get this kid back to sleep and allow me to sleep also. 2. that I would have the patience I need to get through this situation. 3. that the next day I would have the patience to deal with life with my lack of sleep.<br />Well, Conner woke up at 7:15, which was just barely after I fell back asleep after all the Parker drama... Thankfully he was pretty quiet and let me sleep until Parker woke up at 8:30.<br />So... all that to say and this morning I was grouchy. I was angry with this two year old little boy who I wanted to both hug and kiss and tell him how much I love him (because I couldn't do all that while he was screaming to get his way) and I wanted to yell at him and tell him that he CANNOT DO THAT AGAIN! I did hug and kiss him, but I didn't yell at him. I did have a serious talk with him and told him he wasn't allowed to play with his precious cars today. At all, due to his poor behavior.<br /><span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">Ok</span>, I really wrote a lot just now... and I will finally get to my point. The boys are taking a nap (I must say this time it was a breeze getting them down to sleep- usually not so), and I sat down to do my bible study. Right now I am doing a study on idols... named "No Other Gods" by Kelly Minter. Click <a href="http://livingroomseries.com/">here</a> for more information. <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">side note</span> I really like the study and would totally recommend it. Anyway, <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">today's</span> lesson was about Abraham and Isaac. We have already studied them in this particular study... but we revisited the story today to look for God's provision. I guess I already knew that a major takeaway point in the story was that God provided the ram for Abraham... so that he would not have to <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">sacrifice</span> Isaac like he first thought. But something that the author of the study pointed out (through both these passages <a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Genesis%2022:1-19;&version=31;">Genesis 22 1-19 </a>and <a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=hebrews%2011:17-19;&version=31;">Hebrews 11:17-19</a>) was that Abraham expected the Lord to provide. He expected that the Lord would provide in a way that was different than what actually happened, but <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">regardless</span> he expected Him to provide. Abraham knew that God was capable of bringing Isaac back from the dead, so in Genesis 22:5 he told his servants to wait there while he and the boy went and worshipped and then they would come back. In Hebrews it is said that Abraham knew that God said that through Isaac his offspring would be reckoned. So, he knew that God had promised him offspring through Isaac so he knew that Isaac would have to live. So he trusted that God would provide. He had to.<br />My revelation?<br />I am constantly praying for more patience (this I think is my biggest struggle). I know by now that this is not something I will obtain on my own. I have tried and tried again and continue to try with no avail... So I know it can come from God alone. However I am never expecting the provision. Like I said, I know it can come from God, the problem is that I don't believe it <em>will</em> come from God. So I get more and more frustrated as the time passes. My trust for God's provision is not there. I am not saying I figured out my problem... I just know now a little better of what my problem actually is. <br />In case you are wondering... to tie this into our study (which is about idols) we so often look for the provision through an idol. Like sleep... "if only Parker and I would sleep, tomorrow I would have more patience." I know that sounds sort of silly for sleep to be an idol, but I am learning (the very difficult way) that I have idols I didn't even think could be idols. Things I trust in more than I trust in God.<br />Anyway, just wanted to journal this revelation more than anything... sorry if it was boring.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1088222323474570108.post-23601346782817298412009-05-09T21:46:00.003-05:002009-05-09T21:52:08.725-05:00Mothers DayToday, I have been a little sad. I wasn't sure why. I am and have been on edge and sad. <br />I love being a mom. I am so happy that I get to celebrate Mothers day as a mother. But tonight, I am sitting here and everyone has gone to bed and I am figuring out why I am sad. While I know that Mothers Day should be such a happy day for me because I LOVE being a mother, I miss my own mom. I miss her so much. There aren't a whole lot of times where all you here everywhere you turn is the word "mom." People aren't telling you all year long to "celebrate your mom," or to "show your mom your appreciation." But at Mothers Day it is all over-everywhere. I want so much to show my mom my appreciation, or to do something special for her. So, that is where I am tonight. Sobbing on my couch, because I just want to talk to my mom. To see her face. I'm so desperate that I actually googled her tonight. I googled anything I could think of to bring up her face. To see her face. To have a different persons recollection of my mom... anything. I just miss her so much. <br />Sorry if this post doesn't make any sense.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1088222323474570108.post-7863067068420416862009-04-29T23:15:00.002-05:002009-04-29T23:20:08.357-05:00Plugging along...I am getting anxious to see this sweet little girl. I am just about 23 1/2 weeks I think. So almost 6 months?! Today I went to a pilates class with a friend thinking that I wouldn't be able to do all of it (like the laying on your stomach stuff)... Well, apparently big bellies and pilates don't go together all that well... and neither does trying to keep your "tummy tight" and pregnancy. I had to leave the class midway through and go run... Afterall I didn't want to waste an hour of my kids enduring childcare on sitting on a mat watching everyone "keep their (already tight) tummy's tight." Thank goodness I did get a good workout in and still picked up my sweet boys before they were totally sick of the childcare. No more pilates... at least for a few months.<br />It feels like August is years away. And it also feels like December (when I found out I was pregnant) was years ago. How long is a typical pregnancy? Surely not years?!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1088222323474570108.post-74891812062422434432009-04-22T21:31:00.002-05:002009-04-22T21:34:13.688-05:00update...Today I had an ultrasound... It was just supposed to be a follow up because at my last one she wasn't able to see the face. Well, she still wasn't able to see the face, because apparently amniotic fluid makes it easier to see things... Well, good thing she did the ultrasound... because she discovered that my amniotic fluid is low. It is supposed to measure between 10-20 (centimeters I think?) and it is only measuring 8. So, right now I am to be drinking a ton of water, which may cure the problem, and they will be checking it again at my next appointment on May 20th. So, if you get a chance, please pray. We want to keep the baby safe! Thanks!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1088222323474570108.post-61239663107677345532009-04-17T22:00:00.002-05:002009-04-17T22:09:37.906-05:00sad... but encouraging! (also very random)Today I finally went to the gym. Not just for bible study or coffee. That last sentence may have sounded a little weird to those of you who aren't stay at home moms in Flower Mound... You see our <a href="http://www.lifetimefitness.com/membership/?gclid=CK7HsMG4-ZkCFVaF7QodNR8ZFg">gym</a> has become a great meeting grounds for my friends and I to meet and visit or do bible study, because it has childcare for 2 hours at a time and a cafe. It is NOT the kind of gym we (my family) would normally find ourselves at as it is rediculously expensive... but last September our old gym (which I loved- and I actually exercized at) sold out to this new gym and we got a "good" rate... So we moved. Which was so exciting at first, because of all the crazy but fun ammenities, but now... I have been realizing just how much I haven't been working out. So...<br />to get to my point. Today I went to the gym with a full intention of working out. I didn't meet anyone there or anything. And, sadly after 20 minutes on the eliptical and only 10 minutes of running I was SOOO proud of myself. Like I seriously wanted to tell everyone there that I had run for 10 minutes straight.LOL Wow, things have gotten bad. Hopefully I can get back into the swing of working out. I would really not love to gain the 50 pounds with this baby that I feel like I am going to gain.<br />Sorry that was a totally random post!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1088222323474570108.post-38066734202522702172009-04-13T13:53:00.012-05:002009-04-13T16:41:52.793-05:00This may be too soon.LOLWait... I don't have to wait weeks or even months between posts? Am I actually posting two days in a row? Yes I am. It is after 2 o'clock pm... and I should be showering (no, I have not even gotten dressed today) but no. I am posting some pictures that Dawn gave me last night! Love them!<a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/SeONe_JzEYI/AAAAAAAAAMk/mEAaHoXVyWY/s1600-h/IMG_6547.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5324254747970179458" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 214px" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/SeONe_JzEYI/AAAAAAAAAMk/mEAaHoXVyWY/s320/IMG_6547.JPG" border="0" /></a> Thanks sister!<br /><div><br /></div><div><br /><br /><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/SeOMv9g-uHI/AAAAAAAAAMU/RZU-PTM8zcQ/s1600-h/IMG_6308_edited-for+web.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5324253940076689522" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 283px" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/SeOMv9g-uHI/AAAAAAAAAMU/RZU-PTM8zcQ/s320/IMG_6308_edited-for+web.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br /></div><div><div><div><br /><a href="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/SeONFJixbKI/AAAAAAAAAMc/PExkBaPcQTU/s1600-h/IMG_6396.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5324254304082685090" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 214px" alt="" src="http://3.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/SeONFJixbKI/AAAAAAAAAMc/PExkBaPcQTU/s320/IMG_6396.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><div><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/SeOLyyp5ECI/AAAAAAAAAL8/CXKmJ3jsdrI/s1600-h/IMG_6778.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5324252889189257250" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 214px" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/SeOLyyp5ECI/AAAAAAAAAL8/CXKmJ3jsdrI/s320/IMG_6778.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/SeOMpg06FsI/AAAAAAAAAMM/WySEOdy_puc/s1600-h/IMG_6245_edited-for+web.jpg"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5324253829296428738" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 214px" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/SeOMpg06FsI/AAAAAAAAAMM/WySEOdy_puc/s320/IMG_6245_edited-for+web.jpg" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /></div><div><br /><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/SeOMdAOf4LI/AAAAAAAAAME/E96jC8D30bY/s1600-h/IMG_6029.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5324253614386962610" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 214px" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/SeOMdAOf4LI/AAAAAAAAAME/E96jC8D30bY/s320/IMG_6029.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /><br /><br /><div><div></div><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/SeOKfGbI9RI/AAAAAAAAALs/qjvGwfB5340/s1600-h/Family+picture.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5324251451387082002" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 214px" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/SeOKfGbI9RI/AAAAAAAAALs/qjvGwfB5340/s320/Family+picture.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><br /><br /></div></div></div></div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1088222323474570108.post-34799397627369156242009-04-12T16:43:00.007-05:002009-04-12T17:10:06.017-05:00Long over due...I finally uploaded our pictures from Paris... I don't remember if I mentioned it in any previous posts... I'm sure I did... but we went there in mid-march and had a great time!<br />Hope you enjoy it as much as we did...<br /><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/SeJkfEnTOfI/AAAAAAAAALk/85EtPMLNx1c/s1600-h/P1020766.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5323928194482649586" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 240px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 320px" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/SeJkfEnTOfI/AAAAAAAAALk/85EtPMLNx1c/s320/P1020766.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><div><br /><br /><div><br /><br /><br /><div>The obligatory picture in front of the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Eiffel</span> tower!:) This was on our way back to the hotel from going up the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">Eiffel</span> tower... It was incredible!<br /><br /><br /><br /></div><div></div><div><br /><br /><br /></div><div></div><div><br /><br /><br /></div><div></div><div><br /><br /><br /></div><div></div><div><br /><br /><br /></div><div></div><div><br /><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/SeJkOpsdKFI/AAAAAAAAALc/BsmUQoRpl4s/s1600-h/P1020765.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5323927912378607698" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/SeJkOpsdKFI/AAAAAAAAALc/BsmUQoRpl4s/s320/P1020765.JPG" border="0" /></a></div><div> </div><div> </div><div> </div><div> </div><div> </div><div>This picture was taken halfway up the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">Eiffel</span> tower... We couldn't go all the way up because it was closed for <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">maintenance</span>:( But I think it was just as incredible from halfway. I mean, you could still see the whole city! Which is MASSIVE! I was leaving the next day, and we realized how little of the city we had seen in our 4 days.<br /><br /></div><div></div><div><br /><a href="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/SeJj5Eo32oI/AAAAAAAAALU/6M6TM8yD9yY/s1600-h/P1020749.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5323927541654215298" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px" alt="" src="http://4.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/SeJj5Eo32oI/AAAAAAAAALU/6M6TM8yD9yY/s320/P1020749.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><br /></div><div></div><div>This is us sitting outside a cafe after we finished lunch. The reflection of the building you can see in the window behind us is pretty typical of what everything there looks like. It was all very beautiful... and old! It even smelled old... Outside. Kinda weird.<br /><br /><br /></div><div></div><div><br /><br /><br /></div><div></div><div><br /><br /><br /></div><div></div><div><br /><br /><br /></div><div></div><div><a href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/SeJjg0nBAxI/AAAAAAAAALM/Hfcifwx2YyA/s1600-h/P1020723.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5323927125034599186" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px" alt="" src="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/SeJjg0nBAxI/AAAAAAAAALM/Hfcifwx2YyA/s320/P1020723.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><br />This picture was taken across the river from the cathedral of <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">Notre</span> Dame. It was in my opinion Paris' #1 attraction. Better than the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">Eiffel</span> tower by FAR! It was amazing!<br /></div><div></div><div><br /><br /><br /></div><div></div><div><br /><br /><br /></div><div><br /><br /><br /><br /><a href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/SeJitsevLRI/AAAAAAAAALE/E5cxOVluqb4/s1600-h/P1020721.JPG"><img id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5323926246679063826" style="FLOAT: left; MARGIN: 0px 10px 10px 0px; WIDTH: 320px; CURSOR: hand; HEIGHT: 240px" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_cRZog322RUY/SeJitsevLRI/AAAAAAAAALE/E5cxOVluqb4/s320/P1020721.JPG" border="0" /></a><br /><div>On the "<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">Batobus</span>," the boat that drove us along the <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">Seine</span> to get to the main attractions.</div></div></div></div>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1088222323474570108.post-60988942980289072492009-03-23T21:02:00.002-05:002009-03-23T21:05:42.741-05:00Its a girl!I am so excited to announce first of all that our baby is healthy and growing! Second, in case you didn't gather from the title... Its a girl!<br />We are so excited, but as the hours have passed since we found out I think the reality is setting in a bit more. Darin and I both are realizing life is going to change a lot. I mean, obviously not as drastically as when we had Conner, but things will <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">definitely</span> be different raising a girl from boys. So... we will continue to pray for each one of our children, and continue to pray for ourselves and our ability to raise boys, and now a girl! Please pray with us! We <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">definitely</span> need it!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1088222323474570108.post-9774344328494006752009-03-14T16:09:00.002-05:002009-03-14T16:17:23.956-05:004 days vacation in the most romantic city in the world and I'm blue.Tomorrow I am going to France to spend 4 days there with my hubby. I am sooo excited, and yet kind of dreading it. I am going to miss my boys sooo much. I just hope that they have a fun time at home. <br />It feels like lately that we are in kind of a funk. The boys have been testing me a lot, and I feel like such a mean mommy, and I've been so on edge with them because I am constantly afraid (probably not the right word) that I am about to face another test. So, I'm sad. I've always got this fear that they will grow up and think that I don't love them. I don't know why that would happen... It may be unwarrented, but nonetheless it is one of my biggest fears. <br />I don't want to go away with them feeling any bit unloved by me. I wanted today to be a special day that then tomorrow I could leave with them feeling secure and loved, and yet this morning we went through it because both of them wanted to see what they could get away with and I as usual was on edge because of it. Not to blame it on them... I am in control of myself and the way I handle myself. <br />Anyway, just wondering if anyone else feels like this on a regular basis with their beloveds? <br />The days is only half over, so maybe this evening will be better as they have been down for naps for a little while now. And, we have a good chunk of tomorrow together. I love them so much... If only it showed better sometimes.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1088222323474570108.post-83837567474084073572008-12-25T10:37:00.001-06:002008-12-25T10:38:46.952-06:00Merry Christmas!I hope you all have a wonderful Merry Christmas today! I know I am!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1088222323474570108.post-38764002469542887212008-12-22T18:39:00.002-06:002008-12-22T18:44:40.804-06:00drum roll please...Yay! I am pregnant! What an amazing Christmas present for our family! We are so excited to have a new addition to our family in the middle of August or so. I guess with the third pregnancy comes a really quick gut!LOL My belly is already sticking out and I am just trying to figure out if I am retaining water, or if this is the start of my belly bump?! Fun stuff!<br />Also we have Grandpa and Grandma visiting right now (Darin's parents). They came in on Saturday, so we got to share the good news with them. We've been having a great visit so far. <br />After Christmas Darin and I are taking care of the special babysitters we have here and going away to Florida for a few days. We are both sooo excited. We're actually going on a date tonight too! Lucky us to have Grandma and Grandpa here!<br />Anyway, we are still enjoying this wonderful season, and really getting ready for Christmas! Can't wait!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1088222323474570108.post-3914383376577572762008-12-08T21:51:00.003-06:002008-12-08T22:05:15.202-06:00"Happy Holidays" or whatever I'm supposed to say...<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">Ok</span>, well this Christmas I am <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">definitely</span> in the spirit. I am just having one problem that is especially weighing on my heart. Why??? Do people celebrate Christmas that don't follow Christ? And, why do these kind of people who celebrate Christmas, and those who don't celebrate Christmas care whether people say "Merry Christmas?" I mean, it has always bothered me that people are stifled out of saying "Merry Christmas" but just this year it is <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">occurring</span> to me (and frankly driving me crazy) that people want Christmas, but they don't want the meaning. They want presents, and they want the good feeling that Christmas brings, but they don't want the reason that we even have such a holiday... and really, sadly they don't know that the meaning is so much more important than the stuff! Why would we say Happy <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">Holidays</span>? Why would we have a Christmas tree, why would we spend billions of dollars every December if it wasn't to celebrate the life of our Savior, and WHY the heck would we try to put a different name on it? Or not shout it from the rooftops?<br />This is REALLY bugging me!<br />I said I am "in the spirit" and I am. I LOVE my Lord, and I am in the spirit of celebrating His life and what it means for me for my husband, my kids, my friends, my family, the world. I was listening to the song "Mary did you know" (I don't know who sings it... a lot of people I imagine) and it really got me thinking about Mary... I guess that is what it is supposed to do. But how strange for this woman to watch her son grow up and see what He was, what He came to do. There is one line in the song that says something like "Mary did you know that the son you delivered would someday deliver you?" How amazing! How wonderful! I am so excited to be a christian... So sad for those poor people who are walking around saying Happy Holidays. What a sad state to be in.<br /><span style="font-size:180%;"><span style="color:#ff0000;"><span style="color:#009900;">MERRY</span> CHRISTMAS!</span></span>Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1088222323474570108.post-71159181415400496312008-11-11T14:50:00.003-06:002008-11-11T14:52:21.174-06:00Ahhhwww....I am sooo tired lately. I just want to sleep in till noon (not really an option with two little boys) and then take a nap every day while they are. Then I want to go to bed at 8 when I am done putting them down. The only problem is that no matter how tired I am at night I can't fall asleep. Probably getting too much sleep during the day. Thats why I am not taking a nap right now. But seriously, why am I sooo tired?!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1088222323474570108.post-32921038503101201692008-11-05T20:49:00.003-06:002008-11-05T21:28:26.104-06:00Patience and submissionI stuggle with patience. With everything, everyone. I don't know why this is such a stuggle of mine. I also stuggle with submission. In the last few months I have been learning more about these things, and how much I really struggle with them.<br />I want a baby. I want a baby really badly. I know I already have two beautiful, healthy children. I love them sooo much, and it is not that they aren't enough. It doesn't make sense to me why I want another child so badly, but I do. In the same way I wanted my sweet Conner and my precious Parker. <br />A couple of months ago I found out that I was pregnant. At the same time I found out I was pregnant I found out that I miscarried. This was after a week of wondering and hoping and thinking that I was pregnant. The night before the doctor said they'd call me and "let me know" I started my period. So, I knew I wasn't pregnant. Somehow I was ok with it. I know that everything brings glory to God. I also know that God doesn't cause things like this to happen. I don't fully understand the "will of God." I don't mean I don't understand why things happen they way they do... I don't guess anyone really knows why things happen the way they do. I mean that I don't understand the workings of the will of God... Like, I know that God doesn't make things happen like miscarriages, babies dying, cancer of loved ones. But I think (maybe I'm wrong) that everything that happens is in God's will? I don't know... Anyhow when I started my period I was not that sad, because I feel like yes, this will glorify God, in some way. Also I don't like to fight things like this happening in my life, because I feel (probably without any sense) that if I fight it I am fighting God's will. I am SOOO afraid of being out of God's will. So, I would much rather have had that miscarriage than have had that baby outside of God's will. Is it even God's will? I don't know. I also really don't know if all this makes sense outside of my crazy brain. Sorry for wasting your time if it didn't. And wow, that was a lot of "God's wills!"<br />So... for patience and submission to God's perfect plan I pray. That I can be patient for God to reveal Himself in this situation, not the miscarriage, but the waiting. Also that I can be submissive and trusting that God's plan is in fact perfect like I said earlier. That I can know that if I ever have another baby it will be at a time that is perfect to glorify Him. To know that if I never have another baby, or if I have 10 more miscarriages that His glory is upmost.<br />Ok, well that is what is going on with me.Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1088222323474570108.post-79546994994732689222008-10-30T22:25:00.003-05:002008-10-30T22:36:39.475-05:00Well, I hate to even say this just because I fear I will jinx myself... But I started running again. Well, I should say I ran twice this week, with plans of running more. I also have changed up my diet a bit, so that I can hopefully loose this ten pounds I gained over the summer.:-( So we'll see how that goes!<br />Today I got to go with Conner to school. He had his fall harvest festival today. That was lots of fun! They had all kinds of stations with games, and I got to watch him interact with his classmates and teachers. It was great! Parker got to spend the morning with daddy. They went to Lowes, and went to donuts. I think they had lots of fun too!<br />My friend Jenn (the one with a 4 year old and 2 year old twins) brought her boys over for an hour or so today and we (me and the 5 boys) played t-ball and football in the backyard. That was a blast. They didn't quite get the whole football rules and stuff... but I can't really blame them, because it was kind of like the blind leading the blind seeing how I don't really get the rules of football!LOL. Nonetheless, we had a lot of fun. Parker and one of the twins weren't really interested in football, but Parker was all about t-ball!<br />Fun day!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1088222323474570108.post-48706304388500323102008-10-19T21:00:00.002-05:002008-10-19T21:19:33.849-05:00Helpful husband!At <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">MOPs</span> we have this time where we can share how our husbands have been helpful to us recently. I always feel bad because Darin is ALWAYS <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_1">extemely</span> helpful to me. Women in there say things like their husbands let them take a nap, or their husbands let them sleep in. I don't want to stand there and tell them that my husband would let me do that <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_2">anyday</span>!<span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_3">LOL</span> <br />We don't have <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_4">MOPs</span> tomorrow, but if I could I would share my especially "helpful husband" with them. This weekend he was especially helpful. Saturday morning he let me sleep in (like I said-not unusual) until I had to wake up to get ready to go to downtown Dallas to go to a brunch put on by some girls from our small group and then we (the group of us girls) went to get pedicures, and do some shopping (more on this in a sec). I was gone from about 8:45 until about 2:30. Then we went to church and then over to some friends of ours house for dinner, drinks and stories! LOTS of fun! We didn't get home until about 12:45 am (we had put our boys down to bed at their house). Then this morning he let me sleep in (this time until 10:30). I only woke up when I did because he was leaving to go to the gym and I heard him getting dressed. He didn't just leave for the gym, but he took the boys with him, so that I could clean the house, which was driving he crazy! Then, today he let me take a nap. No, I didn't have a hangover... I don't know why, I am just extremely tired lately. He also took us for a walk, and out for ice cream tonight. Seriously, do husbands get better than this?!<br />I had <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_5">sooo</span> much fun this weekend! Saturday morning was <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_6">sooo</span> fun. Some of the single girls from our small group are the ones who invited and hosted us for brunch. They made a really yummy meal in their <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_7">SOOOO</span> cute little <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_8">potterybarn</span> <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_9">Esq</span> townhouse in this neighborhood in downtown Dallas that I have been in love with since we moved to the <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_10">Metroplex</span>. Such a cute little townhouse, and a great brunch, and we laughed <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_11">soooo</span> hard telling/hearing stories! We eventually had to leave to go to our appointments to get our pedicures. That was fun too! Just sitting and chatting. I missed doing this kind of stuff with my friends in California. I was able to do this anytime with them when I was single. Things like this are just a little bit more difficult now with kids. <br />Then last night we went to our friends Jenn and <span class="blsp-spelling-corrected" id="SPELLING_ERROR_12">Matt's</span>, and ate dinner and had margaritas. A couple that came to our small group once a long time ago ended up coming at the last minute too, and they were so much fun! And... They had 3 month old twins that I got to hold and snuggle with that just reminded me <span class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_13">SOOOO</span> much of how much I want a baby! <br />What a great weekend!Unknownnoreply@blogger.com1